Long overdue! I've been too busy! I hope people know this song.

It's great to pretend to be happy at times.

I'm uploading a video tonight, I promise. :)

2008 and 2009 sucked big time. I hope 2010 will be my year.

I'm supposed to make this a fan site of some sort but I still don't have the proper tools. Anyway! Just send in your requests and I'll do videos of any song! :)

It has been a busy week for me. School is getting on my nerves, and part timing hasn't been that great either. However, I'm promising to upload new stuff again soon. Just keep in touch with me. xoxo

tact

I disappoint myself everyday. The wrist injury haunts me and probably will haunt me forever, but aside from that, I'm always in a state of mediocrity. Nobody can really help me with this. This is just all me.

I probably have my personal fable about how things are not working for me, and that nobody really knows how I feel, etc. It's a stage all people have- their world is doomed, nobody is sadder than them, nobody feels the way they feel. But you know what? Screw psychology. This is true and it just isn't a stage in one's life. When a person seems to be exaggerating about how they feel, and people tend to judge him of his being irrational, of not using his brain, of being an idiot for feeling that way, actually, those people don't know shit. They really don't know how that person is going through, and they can't play God to judge. It's not just the lack of tact in question in here. It's something beyond sensitivity issues. Come on, all of us are unique, and if we haven't undergone what another person is feeling, all the more we could not and should not have a say about the issue.

With that being said, people question me for what I do. They say there's no life as a piano tutor, but come on piano is my life! They say they know I'm really not happy in this field of work, and try to psych me out during my downest moments of my life. Not just because I look lonely more often than not, it means it's because I hate my job, or I hate what I do. I don't get paid much as a piano tutor, but I love what I do! So all other people should just leave me alone. It ticks me off. Even my friends sometimes don't believe me. Do I really need friends?

A piano is all I need. For now.

I can't fully describe the horror I have everyday for getting my wrist injury when I was seventeen years old. Pain would be an understatement. This is torture in every sense of the word.

So four years ago, I was with my friends at a mall. We went to this gaming store where there was arcade, basketball shoot-outs, etc. There was a punching game and I wanted to prove I was the strongest. Sadly, as I punched all out, I made a mistake somehow then there goes my wrist. It was too painful at the time. I couldn't move it at all. I couldn't type at all. Most importantly, I couldn't play the piano AT ALL. That was the worst kind of pain I've ever received. Though maybe not physically, that was the worst day of my life. I tried therapy of all kinds. For two months, my hand was submerged in hot wax. For some time, I thought my wrist completely healed, but that was just my imagination. I can't stress it too much. Like yesterday, I played badminton with some friends. Until now, my wrist hurts and I can't do anything much with it, really, in terms of the piano. This pain is just truly an inconceivable horror from beyond!

The point of the story, I guess and one that I share with my students as a piano tutor is, arrogance is unacceptable. There is a thin line between great self-confidence and arrogance. One must know this difference and learn this by himself in order for things not to go out of control and bring about utter chaos. I hope everyone can take a lesson from my experience and be thankful of their talents, as one day it can be ripped away. Just like that.

It's Christmas time! It's December! I should be happy, and I have been happy. The spirit of Christmas always welcomes even the saddest of hearts- even my heart to be precise.

It's a time for caroling, for gifts, for giving, and most importantly, for love. For some reason, I feel it this year. I'm always the Scrooge type, but somehow this year is different. I hope this initial feeling doesn't just pass after a day or two, or overnight. I know I can be a better person, if not for all, than starting with just a few. My dreams of teaching kids with their dreams is finally coming into fruition this time of the year. Let's all just hope for the best in everything! Cheers! :)

frustration

I hope that one day I can be known for something. I'm not after the money at all. I just want friends. I want to figure out what life is, and most especially through music. Every time I hear a song, I just want to play it. I just want to teach it. I just want to talk to someone about it. And there. It frustrates me that life is like this.

But anyway! Off to happier things, Christmas is just around the corner! I can't wait to learn new songs. I'm in love with love, I swear! I just really hope that I could share this with the world. Sometimes, I think I'm the most selfish person in the world, that's why I want to change and share everything.

Please help me. Anyone, make me a great piano tutor!

Okay, I'm genuinely happy right now. :)